A Bad Day at Bikram

You know, as much as I talk about the wonder of the juice train, as much as I stay a positive beacon for broccoli… sometimes I have a sucky day. Sometimes, it just SUCKS. 

Case in point: this morning’s Bikram class. My mind wouldn’t shut up. 

I was positioned between these two Black Bikram Goddesses who wouldn’t know cellulite if it smacked them in the face. I was hot. I was annoyed with myself. I was annoyed with my image in the mirror. I thought, “Ugh. Damn knee injury. Knee won’t lock properly. How do they HONESTLY expect you to stay in these poses? Where’s my water? You look fat. Are those STRETCH MARKS? On your KNEES? Lord have mercy. This is ridiculous. Are we supposed to be bending this way? God didn’t mean for my body to bend this way. This is some bulls***. I’m not made for this crap. I’m too FAT for this crap. Three days out of 60 isn’t bad! You could give up now and no one would really care, would they? So what if you don’t finish. I want cheesecake. I know I hate cheesecake but I want some anyway. It’s so damn hot in here. Just lay down. Who cares if everyone else in class can do this stupid pose? I’m protesting. I’m protesting this pose. I’m protesting for all the fat newbies out there. I’m protesting the perfection of these two heifers next to me. I’m protesting this HEAT. Ugh. Ridiculous. Frickin’ frackin’ BIKRAM BULLS***!!!!!”

I swear, that’s exactly what I was thinking. I stayed in the room and got through the poses, but I sho’ nuff wasn’t happy about it.

And then I realized… it’s Day 3. DAY THREE.

When people ask me about how to move through a juice cleanse, I always tell them that Day 3 is the hardest. It’s the day that your body begins to rebel and good ol’ detox shows up. It’s often the day you have to slug through just to get it done. The day when you piss and moan and complain and bitch and want to reach for the first sugar-coated pork rind you can find. The Day Three Blues… and I guess that’s what hit me this morning.

I suppose that, with ANY major change you make, your mind will rebel against you at some point. The Old Carla is pissed that we have made this decision to bend our way to better health and riled up to show her extreme displeasure. The New Carla told her to shut up. 

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11 thoughts on “A Bad Day at Bikram

  1. You can do it! I feel your pain. We’re in a very similar boat of healing and wellness. You can do all things through Christ who gives you strength!

  2. Oh My Carla I really needed that laugh..lol lol lol. I have been going to cross-fit, and it hasn’t been pretty!! I was thinking the same thing at my last class, and I left there saying cross-fit can kiss my fat a**….period!! It’s good to know others are experiencing the same feeling!! Thanks for sharing – Kaii528

  3. Wow! That’s some venting but man can I relate! Geting into the habit of anything is hard and especially something that doesn’t entail chips, TV, and a comfy sofa. Hang in there and it will get better. We’re rooting for you just like you root for us. Tomorrow is a new day and you’re getting better all the time!

  4. Well done. An excellent example of mind over matter as well as inspiration on how to overcome day 3. Kudos to you!

  5. OMG you crack me up woman! But god I love you. And I could hear your voice when you were venting, and I couldn’t help it, I just started to laugh and laugh. I know my dogs thought I was ka-ray-zee. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve gone through that stage where it’s new and you don’t want it to be new, you just want the hard stuff over, but in your head you know you’re effin crazy, that it is *going* to take hard work, and then we all insert our whiny bitchy voice in at this point. LOL I am VERY proud of you for not walking out of that class, because damn it takes a strong woman to go through that heat! Welcome to our world down here in Texas! LOL Luv ya!

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  7. Just started reading your blog. It’s amazing. You’re amazing! I did a 60 day challenge this summer as a vegetarian (I’m new to being a vegetarian) so I can relate. There will be some hard days in your challenge. I had three overall that were rough, like your Day 3, and one of them was early on – Day 7 or 8. But you will have plenty of amazing days and experience so many great things. In the end, you’ll find that these rough days were necessary. You’re working out the junk be it physical or mental. Hang in there.

  8. Hi Carla, I stumble across your website. I am so glad I did. You are soooooooooooo real. I ordered your books on 8/22 and can’t wait to get started juicing. I do have a question on how will the juicing do you as far as going to the bathroom to release stool. I work from 7-3:30pm. I just don’t want to have and accident. Do the waste just start to come without warning? Thats my biggest fear! keep up the great work that you do to help others out there that are fighting the battle of the bulge!!

    • Girl, that’s nothing to be afraid of! People think that when you juice, you’re bowels are just going to explode spontaneously! LOL! That RARELY happens. Some people experience diarrhea as a detox symptom, but even that doesn’t last long. I say, JUST JOOSE!

  9. I gotta chime in as well Carla!
    I did the Bikram thing a few years ago as well. Lordy Lordy! That crap is HOT!
    I can so relate to your day 3 story, and you are so right about it being day THREE!
    I abandoned my Bikram life after paying a lot of money to join. Oh well! Wasn’t the first time I plopped a fortune down on something I thought was going to be my “magic pill” of fitness.
    It is just too damn hot in that room. Really. It is! And all of my instructors looked puffy and strange.
    I did loose some weight and I was feeling great about my body and accomplishments, but I just couldn’t handle it as a long term thing.
    Thanks for the great post! You’re the bestest. xoxo

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